WorldOfIllusion

Tomorrow I have to wake up, get ready… and go to work. See I am just like so many other people, stuck in the rat race that is life. Don’t get me wrong working is good and all – gives me something to do with what would otherwise be free time. Free time is nice, but it reaches a point where you have too much. People need some kind of order and structure… for me that order and structure is working. Before working it was school, and after this batch of work it will be study. They cycle continues.

On a kind of side note here; recently I’ve been thinking about honesty. How much easier would all our lives be if we could simply be honest. I think it’s something I want to try, simply not lie to people. Tell the truth. Sure it might hurt some people but in the end it will probably do more god than bad. I hope.

Hopefully I will get some kind of reciprocal action with this. If things really go my way maybe even a good dialogue with certain people.

That would be nice.

Don’t you just wish sometimes that things were more transparent? It could make life so much easier. Still if everything were more transparent we wouldn’t really have any of our secrets… as much as disclosure would make life better it could also make it worse.

In other news, recently I’ve been thinking about a couple of poems that I have written. Two in particular that seem to crop up as they are relevant to me, time and time again. I won’t put them here because they aren’t the point here. What I’m thinking about is how we cope, rationalise, explain, deal with and simply react to things. Some people try and ignore problems, some talk about them, some write about them. I think also some people also read, for example I read the poems I was mentioning. Overall I know that I use pretty much all of these methods, even the ignoring one – which doesn’t work. At least not in the long term.

That said about ignoring a problem, I do like to distract myself. When I feel bad what helps most is to go out and immerse myself in something. Leave no room for the problem that is bringing me down. Sure this doesn’t solve the problem at all but it gives time and distance. The issue with this method is that it isn’t always so easy to achieve.

See there aren’t always activities available to be a distraction. Especially at night time or when it’s raining – unless your one of those walking at night in the rain type of people. Still walking isn’t even the best activity to distract – even when the weather is good. See you need something to really take your attention away. An example of a better option is video games, not just any game but specifically multi-player games. The competitive nature will help distract you. Hopefully you will also enjoy yourself – after all isn’t that the point of a video game?

Don’t you love trying to dance around a topic? I don’t. It can make for some very awkward and painful conversation… and that’s never fun.

Ah well. I don’t know how much you pay attention to world politics but recently North Korea has been shaking the boat. Threatening all kinds of nasty things, testing all kinds of nasty things. I wouldn’t be surprised if there was war by this time next year – or sooner. In my mind it seems to be like end times for me. Maybe I have simply awakened to the world or maybe there’s some substance to my suspicions.

Who knows.

Do you dream often? I mean I think most people who get the right amount of sleep do dream. The real question is whether you remember your dreams or not. See in my case a lot of the time I’ll wake up and remember the dream. Then five minutes later I can’t remember what it was about – at all. Still in more immediate times I haven’t been able to remember any really good dreams. Instead I have had a few bad ones stuck in my mind. I wouldn’t call them nightmares, they are just negative.

This isn’t really a good thing, see you wake up and start off in a bad mood. That just isn’t fun. Don’t get me wrong here this isn’t a common thing but in the last two months or so it’s happened a couple of times, even if the dreams really were ridiculous.

So now comes the second question of this post, what do you dream about?

*UPDATE*

The very night after writing this I had a good dream… I can’t remember what it was about but I remember waking up and going ‘hey I had a good dream’. Other than that I can’t remember dreaming at all – let alone whether it was good or not.

*ENDUPDATE*

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For those of you who have seen the movie called ‘Watchmen’ you will know about The Comedian. For those of you who have read the graphic novel but not seen the movie I don’t know how accurate the movie depiction is.
To the point there’s one part in the move where he basically explains why he’s the comedian. Here’s a rough quote (from memory) “Everything is a joke, being the comedians the only thing that makes sense.” He laughed away the worlds problems, hid it all under the guise of humour.
It’s an interesting concept really, takes avoiding the problem to a whole new level.

Sorry for the short post, I’m just really not in the mood for writing. Still im bound by the fact I’m trying to post semi-regularly.

Kudos to anyone who bothered to work out the title before reading this.

My group of friends used to have a pretty regular ‘ritual’. See we’d finish school on a friday, walk over to my friends house. Set up two xboxs, with two tv’s and start playing system linked games. When you have eight different people in two different teams (or even free for all) you can have a lot of fun.

We used to play halo 2, in this really dark map with full cammo and a weapon called an energy/beam sword. The thing here is energy swords are melee – they also are a one hit kill. As a disadvantage though they’re bright and don’t get camouflaged. The tactic was run around with the sword away so your enemies couldn’t see it – run up behind someone, pull it out. Kill them, then run like hell cause everyone else just saw your sword.

Nowadays our regular activities are different, see some of us can drive. Not all cause qute a few of my friends are… slow… to get there Learners permit and even slower to get their provisional license.

Ah well.

I just remeber how easy it used to be. I mean there was no massive foreplanning, all we did was decide it was happening the day or night before – and it happened. I just wish everything could be so simple.

Once upon a time, in a galaxy far far away. A lot of people died.

Now that we have that out of the way the real message can begin. I say message as I have secretly been brainwashing all of you. See now you are all my mind slaves, tools that I will use to take over the world. Or something to that extent.

Not really.

Still go back a few years in my life and you’ll notice a lot more jokes about world domination. I had it all set up. I had a figurehead for my ‘party’, a mad scientist to give me world breaking weapons and… two people to make me an army. Yes it was slightly racist that these two people were Asian. Still the stereotype is that Asians breed like rabbits – and rabbits breed a lot. I just wonder, if they were Catholic as well then the army would be unstoppable due to its sheer size.

Don’t act like you don’t understand the joke. Oh and to someone whom I ‘owe’ a dollar… don’t kill me.

Have you ever thought about just changing everything? Not everything as in the whole world everything, instead your everything about – and in – your life.

Recently I have. That said the idea was kind of sparked by an external source, however the idea itself has been there for a while.

I mean in a way I always think about what possible things could happen if I stirred my life the right way. This however is kind of different to what’s going through my mind lately. Back-story here: I’m planning a trip at the end of this year, to a faraway place… anyhow. If while I’m overseas things seem right – I may just stay.

Don’t get me wrong I wont be an illegal immigrant or anything, see I can do it all legally thanks to the fact that I have my very own passport for this faraway land. Benefit of having a parent born there.

I have always kind of thought I wouldn’t live my entire life in Australia. The difference now is that I may just leave my home country sooner. Sure I have some ties to where I live now… but not that many. Guess we’l all just have to wait and see what happens.

WARNING, Poetry content follows. If your going to comment, please try and critique a little. Also, for those of you who didn’t realise – I wrote this myself. So don’t go and put it somewhere else without asking permission.

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