I wish a lot of things in my life had gone differently. Looking back I see parts where I was over-cautious, where I didn’t act. If I could replay those events then maybe I would have a shot. That said even if I had played my hand differently, things could have ended up how they are now.

I don’t know.

During my school-boy years there was this person I liked. I used to talk to them to some extent – and I did plan to ask them out. Yet I never really did. I made excuses as to why I didn’t take a perfectly good opportunity.  Nowadays I have basically lost all communication with said person. Except for rare occasions – one such rare occasion is what has brought about this whole discussion.

See this person is now happily in a relationship (you just have to love surprises…). Before the event I was thinking to myself ‘ah it will be good to see so and so again’ – and it was. Still… I found myself just wishing… wishing it was different.

Ah well.