You know one problem with this blog is that I’m not entirely free in what I write. You see people who I know read this and hence anything I say isn’t protected by the anonymity of the internet (which isn’t really that anonymous). However i’ve been thinking… so here goes. I’m going to be frank and write freely. Getting to the point i’ve been musing over how some people seem to ‘click’ with the opposite gender. They somehow have this knowledge or comfort with the opposite sex that other don’t, granted most people have this to an extent. Yet i’m talking about those who really have it.

I’m one of the people who doesn’t really have it. Naturally I find it rather intriguing, I can’t help but wonder what it would be like. What gives people this confidence? What is it exactly that makes girls comfortable around a guy and vice versa. Of course this is all from my perspective, so i’m going to stop mentioning the female side of my views… simply cause I don’t have them.

Kind of changing track here, something else that I find ‘intriguing’ are certain people who seem to be full of life. While writing this I have a specific person on my mind but I doubt that she’d ever read this and if they did what of it? You see i’m a quiet, shy, reserved person yet there are these spontaneous, energetic, fast paced people. At this point I wonder again what would it be like to be like that. If I wasn’t this semi reclusive boy who isn’t too great in social situations or making new friends (especially with the opposite gender) and instead I was one of these other people?

In the last few days i’ve had the chance to kind of see a small part of life this way. It looks fun, makes me kind of wish I was like that or had more close friends like that but I don’t really so ah well. Life goes on. Maybe one day I will find myself more like these people that I see, then again maybe I won’t. If you’ve gotten this far… well I hope you don’t think im a sociopath and if you think you’ve been talked about in here well… eh.

Sorry for the wall of text, I really should include some graphics to break up the black and white eyesore. So all of you know… if somehow I have caused offence please realise nothing was meant by it (I don’t see anything really offensive but just in case). As i’ve said in other posts, im really not that weird; i’m just some quiet (slightly desperate… I find it sad that I realise this but seem unable to change it) guy.

You can blame this ramble on study camp… no really.