For those who have been reading my blog semi-consistently you really should have seen a topic developing. If you haven’t don’t even bother reading further. This is all the introduction this post will get - from here on in it jumps straight into the metaphorical deep end. Even though there isn’t really anything truly deep about this post at all.
There seems to be a high probability that I will be making the same mistake twice. Originally I had hoped I would have another chance to ’scout’ but that opportunity has gone. Now I do believe I will be doing something stupid - if I don’t then I probably wont end up doing anything at all. If I don’t do anything at all I know my mind will at some point make me question it. That will eventually lead to regret.
I may just be a complete and utterly delusional fool, maybe I should have received the message and maybe the said person has even tried to tell me the message (assuming the message is negative that is). As for my fears about damaged friendship well… I don’t want it to happen (of course). Still looking at this ‘objectively’ it shouldn’t cause damage. Even if it does create awkwardness I probably wont be seeing the said person for three months or longer. Hopefully that will be long enough for any potential aftermath to fade away.
That said if somehow the divine power that is seems to be looking my way and this all goes well… well I don’t know how it would proceed from there.
Ah well.
And yes - this is about you (assuming you are who I am thinking of - ie the said person). That said there is a relatively high likelihood this isn’t about you. See it is only about one person - hence it is rather unlikely it is about you due to the billions of other people it could be about. Also to know conclusively if its about you then ask me, chances are you will have received some form of correspondence from me well before you read this though.
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I wasn’t really rambling uncontrollably there - I wrote it like that on purpose. Promise. Also this has been published automatically via delay.
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