Do you believe you’re missing out?
That everything good is happening somewhere else
But with nobody in your bed
The night is hard to get through
‘Jesus Christ - Brand New’
For those who have read my last post you may recall my idea of not rushing into making the same mistake twice. Well the idea was put into my head… to do something very similar to my original mistake (not that it was really a mistake but it didn’t end well). That’s right - practically doing the opposite of what my last post was thinking. My problem is the allure of this idea working out and playing out well is just so… well alluring. Even if it does go badly I will at least have certainty - I hope. That said it can also have more wide spread ramifications for me. For example a great volume of awkwardness - possibly resulting in a damaged friendship. That is a worst case scenario, or at least its the worst case I can think of.
If only I had the time to wait this out (not that waiting it out would help - at all). Problem with waiting is that I am going to be travelling in less than a month now - and I get the feeling that leaving this till after I get back will doom it completely. Yet if somehow I can magically get things to work out before I go - I for one am happy to put in effort to make it work out on a longer term (not as in a long long term but longer than the time I will be away). Problem is I don’t know if the other party is even aware of my thoughts on the matter - or that I believe there is something to think about at all. Even if the said party is interested I don’t know if they are prepared to put in effort to try and make it work out.
Hypothetically if they are interested, I hope they would try and work it out. Anyhoo - that’s enough of me publishing my problems for everyone to see.
A Leaf by ~HolgaVision on deviantART