Ever now and again my head gets filled with bad, stupid or just plain ridiculous ideas. The problem is I still want to try these ideas out on the very small chance that they will work out. A small sliver of hope that makes me almost prepared to go on a plan of action that will most likely lead me to unhappiness – or something to that extent. Still I suppose trying the ideas even if they fail is a victory (in some small way). See you will then know conclusively that it was a bad idea – that it didn’t work out.

Then hopefully you can learn from your mistakes. I say hopefully as some people just don’t have the good sense to do something so simple as not repeating the same mistake twice. At the moment I think that unfortunately I may be one of these people. Still in the hopes of protecting myself I may just play it slow for a little bit. Play it by ear as they would say. That said it isn’t easy to play it by ear through the distance. So unless events change I suppose I shall be waiting until an event in the upcoming future. Then I shall attempt to use that to decide my next move.

Until then I have to wait and hope that I have chosen the right plan of action. In the end if it turns out that the right plan of action, was no plan of action then that door isn’t completely closed for me yet. Hopefully though I will get a ‘sign’ that will allow me to move forwards without waiting – cause waiting isn’t very much fun at all.