WorldOfIllusion

So it seems I have been back in Australia for a couple of weeks now and I have somehow neglected to update this blog. Yes ladies and gentlemen (and also welcoming those of you who are ‘confused’). I am very much, well and truly… back in Australia.

How sad is that?

A quick summary of my trip - I went places, had fun, met people, did stuff and all in all had the best two months of my life. The downside is my trip has put my life in Australia into stark contrast. Not saying life in Australia isn’t good, its just different. In some ways better in many ways worse. That said some of these differences are surely because I live in Australia whilst Europe was all travel… but still.

In other news I will be starting university shortly and because of that will be moving to Canberra. Should be good.

Until next time.

So I am currently in Barcelona - it’s great. A truly beautiful and fun city to be in - and compared to other parts of Europe the weather is amazing. That said tonight I should be making my way towards Paris and from there on to Amsterdam. I was meant to have been doing this a day ago but I missed the train to Cerbere which was the first stage of my trip to Amsterdam.

Life moves on though, due to missing my train I got another day in Barcelona which has been good so far. Saw the Sagrada Familia, beautiful despite being incomplete. I also managed to get some nice fresh fruit which will be my dinner. This is all thanks to the food markets which are very close to my hostel and quite cheap assuming you don’t get ripped off. For my half kilo of grapes and one apple it cost me all of 70 euro cents. I’m happy with that.

In other news I have essentially reached the half way point of my trip. It has gone so quickly - now I want to try and plan out what I will do with my last month or so before it is finished. That said I don’t even have a full month as my family will be coming to Europe for new years and I would like to catch up with them. That leaves me essentially three more weeks of free travel. Over which time there is Christmas.

Ah well, it will all work out in the end - I hope.

So I am currently in Europe - and sick. Have finished my contiki tour which was great apart from the contiki cough it gave me (the afore mentioned sickness).

In other news. I turn 19 very shortly - this is a bad thing. I do not want to be 19, it reminds me that I’m getting old (relatively of course).

Until next time. As you  can tell this isn’t a long post… more of a small filler really.

So today is the day. In a matter of hours I will be boarding a plane and flying away from Australia. Roughly twenty four hours later I will arrive in London.

I don’t know how often I will update this blog for the two months and a bit that I am gone, if I do have a chance I will try. That said it will probably be short just like this post. Blame my lack of commitment or the fact that writing a long post using an iPhone is slightly painful.

So until next time.

I wonder if you’re listening
Picking up on the signals
Sent back from within
Sometimes it feels like I don’t really know what’s going on
Time and time again it seems like everything is wrong in here

‘Last Train Home - Lostprophets’

Well continuing from my last post things didn’t go so well. Since taking the course of action I chose I have spoken to said person once… and the news was bad. In short the reply was:

1. Why did you tell me - you could have just not.
2. I don’t know what to say.
3. Goodbye.

Actually that isn’t it in short - that was practically the whole conversation.

Go me.

For those who have been reading my blog semi-consistently you really should have seen a topic developing. If you haven’t don’t even bother reading further. This is all the introduction this post will get - from here on in it jumps straight into the metaphorical deep end. Even though there isn’t really anything truly deep about this post at all.

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Way on down where they’ve been forgotten
City just sinking with the whole world watching
Wading waste deep in water, living on my roof in the land of forgotten
Hey, to the deaf giant with the big muscles why ya moving so slow
Con, conquer and dividing, hole in the bucket got nothing to show

‘Gov Did Nothin’ - John Butler Trio’

For a while now I have been thinking about the topic of alcohol. For some reason a lot of people seem to see getting piss faced (drunk, smashed, wasted, pissed - etc) as fun. I simply don’t understand this attraction. Personally I only drink for social reasons - if it weren’t for that I wouldn’t drink at all. Even when I do drink I don’t get drunk. I simply don’t see the point.

Think of it this way a binge: is expensive (generally), bad for your health (long term damage), potentially dangerous (alcohol does impair your decision making abilities) as well as leaving you feeling terrible the next day. I understand that alcohol can lead to some fun times but there is nothing attractive in someone vomiting - or other things like that.

Ah well, in the end it is the individuals choice - I’m not going to go and stop people doing what they want.

I just find it a little bit sad.

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Do you believe you’re missing out?
That everything good is happening somewhere else
But with nobody in your bed
The night is hard to get through

‘Jesus Christ - Brand New’

For those who have read my last post you may recall my idea of not rushing into making the same mistake twice. Well the idea was put into my head… to do something very similar to my original mistake (not that it was really a mistake but it didn’t end well). That’s right - practically doing the opposite of what my last post was thinking. My problem is the allure of this idea working out and playing out well is just so…  well alluring. Even if it does go badly I will at least have certainty - I hope. That said it can also have more wide spread ramifications for me. For example a great volume of awkwardness - possibly resulting in a damaged friendship. That is a worst case scenario, or at least its the worst case I can think of.

If only I had the time to wait this out (not that waiting it out would help - at all). Problem with waiting is that I am going to be travelling in less than a month now - and I get the feeling that leaving this till after I get back will doom it completely. Yet if somehow I can magically get things to work out before I go -  I for one am happy to put in effort to make it work out  on a longer term (not as in a long long term but longer than the time I will be away). Problem is I don’t know if the other party is even aware of my thoughts on the matter - or that I believe there is something to think about at all.  Even if the said party is interested I don’t know if they are prepared to put in effort to try and make  it work out.

Hypothetically if they are interested, I hope they would try and work it out. Anyhoo - that’s enough of me publishing my problems for everyone to see.

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Ever now and again my head gets filled with bad, stupid or just plain ridiculous ideas. The problem is I still want to try these ideas out on the very small chance that they will work out. A small sliver of hope that makes me almost prepared to go on a plan of action that will most likely lead me to unhappiness - or something to that extent. Still I suppose trying the ideas even if they fail is a victory (in some small way). See you will then know conclusively that it was a bad idea - that it didn’t work out.

Then hopefully you can learn from your mistakes. I say hopefully as some people just don’t have the good sense to do something so simple as not repeating the same mistake twice. At the moment I think that unfortunately I may be one of these people. Still in the hopes of protecting myself I may just play it slow for a little bit. Play it by ear as they would say. That said it isn’t easy to play it by ear through the distance. So unless events change I suppose I shall be waiting until an event in the upcoming future. Then I shall attempt to use that to decide my next move.

Until then I have to wait and hope that I have chosen the right plan of action. In the end if it turns out that the right plan of action, was no plan of action then that door isn’t completely closed for me yet. Hopefully though I will get a ’sign’ that will allow me to move forwards without waiting - cause waiting isn’t very much fun at all.